A Letter to God

he know everything…wht should we do for our relation.i want to marry him..i want to marry someone who will keep me as princess…he didnot kept me like that in previous years…i want to live my life…i dont want to be bound..i know he is not my type..i want to live my life and he will not let me do that
but if i leave him its my lust to more onward….and if i marry him its my lust to strive for him.me confused..he dont want to marry me he think me a kid..beside previous relations..help me wht to do